It’s official. My husband, Jason, has accepted a position for a new job that will take us 11 hours from the place we’ve called home our entire lives.
And just as God in 2013 brought us through an insane Kickstarter project, three intense weeks of recording in Texas, the loss of our third baby, a suspicious pathology report, and two surgeries, with a surreal sense of transcendent hope, He is thus sustaining us into this new season.
Neither of us have ever seriously considered leaving our home, our loving families and our incredible friends to move anywhere…dare I say it…far. We’d both had fun with the thought of moving to better weather, but this new state we’re headed for has a climate similar to ours, a little colder even. Yet in our individual prayers since this job possibility came into our path, God has been gently revealing His will.
At one point, before the decision was made, I remember saying, “is it weird that I feel this sort of hopeful anticipation when I think about this new job opportunity? Almost like this might be what God has for us in a new season?” Jason’s reaction was one I didn’t expect. He was feeling the same way.
But why? We looked closer…and we honestly couldn’t find any logical reason to explain why we were mutually feeling these small sparks of excitement…but for God’s leading.
In the days that followed we sought Him more diligently, focusing our seeking on the big question: “is this YOUR will?” And God was faithful to answer.
Have you ever seen movies where a person is trying not to think about something or someone, so they turn on the TV for distraction, but every channel they land on is talking about it?
That was us.
It was like everywhere we turned there was a story of different couples with young kids who were being called by God to move to faraway places for ministry, or the state we were considering moving to was popping up everywhere…like in movies, on license plates of cars next to us on the road, fans who liked my Facebook page or on the Twitter feed…this random state seemed to be popping up everywhere. And it’s not as though the reason was that we had just started paying attention…we’ve been paying attention ever since – and for over a month we have not seen that state popping up so much as it did in the week just before the offer came.
During that week, with all the seeming signs, we took it in stride and simply prayed.
One of the most memorable, deep, guts-out-on-the-table prayers we’ve ever prayed took place during that week. I cried like a little baby as we both poured out our hearts to God, placing our lives before Him, surrendering ourselves to His service, without condition or stipulation, willing, ready, listening. The leading of God came faithful and strong. The promise of being used in ministry drew our hearts and prepared us to say yes to this move.
And then it was a whirlwind…
We’ve had realtors, appraisers, inspectors, contractors, electricians, charity trucks to pick up donations, a de-clutter expert, a cleaning company, photographers for the listing, and finally, buyers, all coming through our house like a veritable parade.
Our house went on the market last Friday.
Saturday morning, the sign was pounded into the cold ground in our front yard.
Sunday, three potential buyers came through.
Sunday evening, our house was sold.
Today is Tuesday.
This kind of craziness walks hand-in-hand with stress…but for God.
You see every step of the way, the Lord has spoken into our souls, nourishing, revitalizing, strengthening, reassuring. And in those hiccups, where anxiety threatens to creep in, Jason has taken the kiddos so that I could steal some extra quiet time in prayer and the Word. Then as if passing the baton, I’d cover the house and babies so that he could get alone with the Lord and be refreshed and filled up.
If you’re reading this, I pray that you might take away this one perfect truth –
The God of the universe loves you and His promises are true.
When you cling to Him, He is faithful to bring you peace (even when it makes no sense that you could feel it) in every circumstance.
Every Word He has spoken, He is delighted to prove.
He asks only that we trust Him, that we believe Him, take His Word at face value, live faith.
And He’s so fabulous, He doesn’t even ask this of us without also offering assistance through His Spirit.
Circumstances are volatile. God will not be moved. He is our anchor, no matter where we live or where we move, no matter which season we find ourselves in.
**I love you Jesus and praise You for You are deserving and greatly to be praised, for You are light and love, righteous and just, compassionate, beautiful God**